Days ago I have written down and posted it here what are my goals for the year 2008 and I am sure I failed to mention about spiritual growth. Sad God – arlene made Him sad.
Truthfully, I haven’t made it to church during the last Sabbath of 2007 and even on Christmas and NY’s night. I dunno if there was thanksgiving service in church during those nights. I just stayed at home those nights yet we had our usual evening worship.
Days back, someone asked me if I was going to church. I said yes – sometimes. 
Then that person commented, “are you backsliding?” I replied, “of course not!” Hahahaha. As what i’ve mention in one of my posts before, just let me be. I want to come to church when I want to – not because someone said so, and someone wanted to. I always believe that working for our salvation is personal, not thru my mom, my pastor, or my boss. right? Anyway, I am hoping to be better spiritually this year 2008.
I can still vividly remember when I was at the lowest point in my life, I went to MVC because I felt, I can be spiritually revived out there. Not by the people but by the Sabbath ambience every Saturday. I feel MVC is nearer to heaven than any other place I can be that time. I knew I improved better there not until I was sent out to work again and my faith was tested again. I went to China with 2 others as “church missionary” and yet we did not act like we were missionaries. We were just used but I haven’t waivered my faith in God that He will be with me and my companions in that foreign land. I missed going to church in my last 2 years there so when I came back in June 2005 – I then regularly attend church until I was given some responsibility. I felt I was not ready for the responsibility that instead of coming to church, I got scared and stopped coming. That’s really the number 1 reason why I stopped going then later it was seconded by laziness.
Last night, we had our Commitment Service Program for the year 2008 — and I realized I have to change my views so that I can drag myself to church every Sabbath and maybe I will become active again in doing my work.
Today is the first Sabbath of the year and I am glad I made it to church and I was blessed in a way by some of the testimonies given by the participants. The lesson theme this quarter is also nice — Discipleship. I realized that what I did in the previous year, I was not worth to be called God’s disciple because I forgot to place God above everything else in my life. So I really hope that I will be more receptive to the Holy Spirit’s guidance this year and the rest of the years of my life.
I know I should change now for the better while there is still a chance to freely attend church and freely keep my faith and religion. Thank God for this chance.
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