Honor Thy Mother and Thy Father

Honor they mother and the father that thy days may be long upon the land which the Lord they God giveth thee. Exodus 20:12.

This is one of the memory verses that I have memorized at a very young age and when I reached the 3rd grade, I am able to recite The Ten Commandments.  But during those years, I really haven’t taken the verse into thought and think about the deep deep meaning of it.  As you read it plainly, it is very to understand but I doubt if peole really felt the deep meaning of it.

Now…………….I started to question about myself’s behavior when I was in college, when I started to have bad attitudes and behavior towards my father.  It became worst when I got pregnant out of wedlock — He is never allowed a word or else.  It was like my mind is so full of bitter thoughts that I could burst any moment.  I was like an angry lion that when attacked even by a peeple, could eat one alive!  exag! But that is how I felt…even now as i make this blog. So I’d rather stop talking about him – the person whom i should call father.

Few years later, my mom and some people told me that possibly my hardship is caused by not honoring my dad. huh? Well… maybe I am just one of those people who does not have a good relationship with a father.

How can really we children respect our parent/s, mom or dad when:

1.  A father molests his own daughter/daughters.

2.  A drunk mother and father beats her kids to death.

3.  Parents gave birth to 12 or more children who they can’t afford to raise and let them work at young age by asking money down the streets.  Not to mention those who are hit by cars, and since nobody owns them, they are just rolled to the sides of the streets.

4.  A father sells his daughter/daughters to white slavery for money.

5.  Parents abuse their kids, physically, mentally, and emotionally.

6.  A father physically abuse his wife infront of the kids to the point that the wife lost unconscious because the husband beat her wife with a wood in the head and she fell to the floor bleeding.  The kids screaming, shocked, does not know what to do.   Did the father realized the effect of the act to his kids as they grow up?

Can you blame the kids of these type of parents for not honoring or respecting them?  I guess there are still many more situations that makes a child not able to respect a parent. 

Am a mom’s daughter and it does not mean that I don’t talk back at her at times especially now that I am already an adult.  I do talk back because at times mom implement things that are based on her times before which I totally disagree because I feel it is not applicable in the present time.  And still more instances but later I would say sorry or try to make it up by explaining to her the point when she has already cleared her head.

But it is not the same with my father.  He just really makes me mad.  I blame him  for making my mom have heart ailment.  I blame him for not being able to build a house for them as couple when they were young.  I hate him for being irresponsible.  I just feel the only thing he was responsible was making us his children, but he failed to realized that to birth them was not enough, he should have raised and supported us.

Ahh…just so much I got to say.  Well, I am able to write this because days back he came to my home and I asked him why he came it is because he has no more money again and he has no food at his home. Grrrrr I wonder when will he changed!  Maybe he will never change at all!  When will he realized he only got himself to feed when I have a whole household to feed!

Ohh I just can’t find myself act according to that verse.  He has hurt me a lot!  He has emotionally hurt me since I was a kid and all these years, his irresponsible and lazy attitude caused me to be bitter at him and I dunno when will he let me stop feeling bitter towards him.

Sigh.