I believe that God made man uniquely in different colors. But it does not mean that one is inferior or superior over the other.
Naturally, a Filipino is colored brown. That nice light brown according to them if one stays in the city and if you are darker to darkest brown, maybe you are staying in a place where you are too exposed to the sun. I dunno where the idea of having a lighter colored skin means “beautiful” when in the Bible, it says, Black is beautiful.
Personally, while growing up, I didn’t give attention to my skin color but I always consider myself brown, (medium shade brown) that maybe when I was growing up I could be called an ugly duckling though I have a straight hair always cut to the Egyptian style and a moderately bubbly but serious personality – so no one will really take notice and mention of my skin color. That’s it even when I went to college and when I had my jobs — nobody takes me in favorably because of my skin color. I never use any whitening lotion or soap to alter the color of my skin. The only unnatural thing i put on my skin was the eskinol to ward off oily excess of the cream to lighten chicken pox scars and the Johnson’s Baby oil used as my body lotion (head to toe regimen) after every bath or shower.
I am a proud Filipina with a brown skin tone. I always think brown not until when I had friends after college that invited me to go swimming and required me to wear a bathing suit — i then discovered thru the photos that I am not brown.
They said, that i have a a very very light brown complexion that Filipinos would call “maputi.” I felt disappointed. I always imagine to have that smooth, brown toned Filipina skin, with long black hair, and sexy body shape of (34/24/34) that would look sexy in mini skirt. LOL!
When I went to China, locals think am just Chinese because of my skin color. Inspite I want to be acknowledge as a lao wai or foreigner but they don’t look at me coz am one. When I go around on my own, no one cares. They think I just look at them, except when I open my mouth to say something and they realized am a foreigner, then am given a kind stare or friendly acknowledgement even unwanted help. They care to look at me too if I go with “real” lao wai – the one with freckled white skin, blue or hazel green eyes, and with a height that’s towering. Like one time, my co workers are both guys from Canada and Holland and after work, we often go home together and we find the locals staring at us. To me, I feel funny, but to them, they feel it’s disgusting. They asked me one time, “why are these people always staring at us?” I answered, maybe for two reasons. One is, lucky chinese girl, going out with two handsome lao wai (they think caucasians are cool and handsome!) or two, they think that, why this two handsome lao wai going out with a local chinese girl. And after saying that, I laugh and laugh and they joined me laughing because they find it absurb. With my co teachers, I just take it as fun, but not with the parents of my students. I find it insulting when a parent pull out a student in my class to be shoved into the class of co teachers (with the thought that they teach better than i do!) Well, my boss settled that problem out but really, it was discouraging.
Lately, I went to Bangkok for a short break and I had the chance to work for a day. My cousins told me that I had it because of my work experience in China and the color of my skin. What? Again — skin color? Well, I just feel sad for a cousin who is planning to go to find a job and his color is real real dark brown.
How I wish — people are hired for their skills and ability not by the color of the skin.
Well, whatever. I just can say now that no matter what is my shade is my brown color – am still a filipina. And if not brown then, a fair (not white) colored filipina.


























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